BlackWolf_91

No, I just want to feel loved and accepted for once in my life.

I wish I knew how. I wish I was never born. I wish I didn't exist.

I don't think women will ever like me.

It's too late for me. I'm too much of this, too little of that. Maybe I'll just starve to death and leave everybody else to fall in love and be with each other, my life makes no difference.

I can tolerate being alone but I'm never truly happy about it. I've wanted a girlfriend since Kindergarten. I lie awake at night thinking about it.

I don't have any friends.

If wanting a girlfriend makes me look desperate then so be it.

I feel like slitting my wrists. I'm sick of hearing the same cliches parroted at me by different people.

I like playing MUSIC for fun. MUSIC is my hobby, my work, my job, my career.

The reason why I'm focused on wanting a girlfriend is because I'VE NEVER HAD ONE BEFORE. I can't think about anything else because that is what's MISSING in my life. I want A WOMAN in my life.

Why is that such an evil, selfish thing?

So I've got a picture of the real me now, not that it matters much, but where are you supposed to go to find girls to hang out with? I'm totally lost and wandering around in no man's land. Or no woman's land more like. I feel like I've got a straight jacket on.

So where are these imaginary women that actually DO want a relationship with a guy? I could care less about jobs and careers, I'm a musician, if that turns into something professional, great, if not, so be it.

I was bullied and abused alot growing up in school, nobody, male or female, treated me like a human being.there. In fact I noticed the guys twice as big as me who were doing all the bullying would have their girlfriends laugh and get off on it.

Didn't do much for my confidence in myself OR humanity.

Ok for Ziggy's sake I'll try not to reply any more....it's a fun conversation though, maybe someone could start a separate thread?

Well there are plenty of women dreaming about a future without men so I thought I would turn the tables...

But seriously, I can't find any women that aren't already taken, or lesbian, or don't want a boyfriend, etc, etc...

Could there be a future where men won't need women any more?

Thank you everyone, sorry if ive singled any one out. Im learning more from you guys than Ive ever learned in my life

@ quietguy Yessir I am in the US, I sent the e-mail to Halo yesterday with all the information and such, thanks again!

And I wanted to say sorry to Halo/Luna/ for sounding mean and angry, please forgive me

I selected "add pheros and cops" to my order, not even knowing what cops were lol.....So Im hoping that means Mara added them!

That's a relief because that Alpha thing has been a gigantic weight on my shoulders and I'd rather be in a meaningful relationship with somebody and show them who I really am. I went for Heart Throb because I also noticed it was "Alpha-Social-Sexy" and the part about inspiring companionship instead of confrontation. Then again im a newbie....but everybody here had really clued me in.

Bellas comments really stand out to me, because I do want to be myself, and not pretend. I've just felt all this pressure off the internet to be an Alpha or women won't even like you let alone want to know who you truely are on the inside.....Im very confused by it all

Wow, thats really really generous of you. Ummmm...so yes I would absolutely take you up on that!

Let me know what I can do on my end.

Thank you thank you thank you!!!! x infinity

I dont want to unlearn it, I like being attracted to women

Men need women, women need men. We're social creatures. You can play the strong-willed independent all you want but it doesn't change that basic human need.

Woops, wish I had read this before adding cops to mine ....

Wouldn't any of what I have work to help me feel better?

I can't afford anything else right now. All I have is the Love Potion # 9, Weenie (no pheros or cops), and a few extra oil samples. I think one is Nox with pheros.

I went for Heart Throb because I thought it might help boost me into whatever it means to be alpha...Im really new to all of this. I guess Ill find out if somebody likes me

You use the phrase ghost out and that's exactly how I feel, like I don't exist to them or something. Like I feel that way already without any chemicals.